The only reason why I always get blamed is because I'm the one most unwilling to show vulnerability

Sadness Among The Blissful

How can one be so lonely and adored?

Remembered and forgotten?

So close yet so distant?

Constant and changing?

Bright and dim?

Laid out and mysterious?

Obscure but apparent?

So high and low?

Following you around but unreachable?

xoxo

Bea

Thank You

I think I'm having sad thoughts again tonight. Either that, or I'm ecstatic, deep in thought, or furious.

Even though I have a lot of things I regret, I thank God for simply being there. I thank Him for the other half of my decisions- the ones I got right. I thank Him for giving me a wonderful life-- the best life one could ever imagine. I thank Him for giving me hope, for creating me the way I am.

Thank You.

xoxo
Bea

Regrets

In a world where I tried harder, things might have turned out differently.
I regret not listening.
I regret not taking it.
I regret being stubborn, arrogant, and lazy.
I regret not thinking hard enough.
I regret not looking far enough.

But they didn't

xoxo
Bea

Believe, and it will happen.

Tell yourself that because it's more or less true.
Believe what they say about you.
Then maybe you won't be so blue.
And be a bright red for once.

Don't fret; just.
And this, too, will pass.
But right now; alas!
Turn it into dust.

Believe, and it will happen.

Senseless

Don't doubt.
Just shout.
For a reason.
This season.
Shut up.
Please not.
Just...
Must...
I'm sorry.
Don't worry.
Not crazy.
Simply shaky.
This poem.
Makes perfect sense.

xoxo
Bea

Positivity To Pass Around

I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. Oh boy. Oh boy. Oh boy. I CAN FREAKING DO THIS.
Breathe, Bea, breathe.

You. can. You can.

JUST BELIEVE AND YOU CAN AND NOTHING WILL EVER STOP YOU.

Not making sense, am I?

Just.... please happen, and please please please happen.

xoxo :|
Bea

Bea's Christmas List (2012)

1.) Sonic Screwdriver
2.) Bow tie
3.) Suspenders (I seriously, seriously want some!)
4.) Harry Potter Lego (preferably Hogwarts)
5.) One Direction tickets (Ha! Fat chance!)
6.) One Republic or Paramore album
7.) 50+ reviews
8.) Pogo-stick (yes, still wishing on that.)
9.) Nerd glasses (NEED! :D )
10.) Fez (how could I forget?!)
11.) Jollibee street kids to be okay.

Obviously, my Doctor Who addiction has affected this year's christmas list greatly :P.